Going Home

Ever since this semester started, I began taking notice of how many times I want to go back home. It’s weird because last semester I didn’t go home for a whole month and a half in the beginning and even then going back home was for only important events or family emergencies. But now since I came back all I want to do is go back. I realised that I don’t get much school work done when I stay home either. Everyone wants to do something or I have work and I don’t get nothing done. I have only one class on Monday but, when I leave everything for Monday I stress myself out even more because the next day is Tuesday, one of my busiest days. I just need to start getting my schedule straight because I feel like I am leaving most things to the end and, I absolutely hate it. So, I am trying not to think about back home to much because, I feel like I miss it even more this semester. Maybe it’s because I feel like I have been here for so long already that I just want to go back and be home. But I am going to try and get my mind off of home. I mean we are technically already in March and time is just going on by fast. It’s crazy to think that just around this time last year I was stressing over my senior project, my CNA class/internship, leadership, the health expo, class of 2017 (club), and college stuff. Now here I am, in college and still stressing.

Is College Pointless?

So just last week during English we were discussing about how being a first generation student can be difficult because your parents expect so much of you and, it feels like you have an enormous weight on your shoulders. We also talked about how there are some people who really don’t think you have to go to college and feel that it is unimportant and a waste of time. I have been put into both of these situations. My parents always tell me that out of the four other siblings I have, I am the one who is going to be the one in college. I am also the only one who can prove others wrong. When they say that I feel so stressed out with their expectations they have of me. Sure, I can use it as motivation but, it’s the thought of letting them down that scares me the most. I have also had other family members especially my cousin tell me how it is not important. She asks me how college is and I usually respond “Good just a bit stressful is all.” But she is quick to tell me the many reasons why she didn’t go and how it is a waste of time and money and, it just irks me. Like sure, I could have went for the money but, I mean I don’t want to be working for the rest of my life in something that I don’t like. So yes, I will take along the stress that comes with college but, it’s because it’s one of the many steps I will need to take for my future.

New Semester More Stress

So we are now in our second semester, oh bring on the stress! It was nice having a month off and getting to spend some time with family but, now it’s time to get in the swing of things. For some odd reason I feel like it is harder this semester to do just that. I am currently taking six class and I regret it so much especially, Tuesdays. Tuesdays are the absolute worst. I have classes from eight in the morning to about seven in the night. At first I found it a bit stressful but, the day actually goes by really quick. I just always feel so tired at the end of the day with my last classes. The struggle of taking a lot of classes is the fact that most of the big things are due all around the same time. For instance, next week I have four essays due; one being a minimum of eight pages and it has to have an outline and some other requirements as well. I am slowly trying my best to find a balance between my classes so I do not feel so suffocated in all this work load. It just sucks that I did not get in most of the classes that I needed last semester for my major and, that I had to double up this semester so I won’t be completely behind. I just hope this semester flies right on by and I could end it off on a good note.